Sunday, December 30, 2012
Minding my own business, watching the 25th anniversary Les Miserables concert and thinking how much better Norm Lewis is than Russell Crowe, and R asks if I can pause the show. Next thing I know, we're talking about the Elephant and how happy R was raising SSA, especially when he was little. And how, if we try it, he would hope that it works. Which is a wonderful thought. And how, if I couldn't work from home, he would want to keep the baby home with him for at least the first year, since he works from the house. So sweet.
I didn't realize what he was saying though. It wasn't until he started to head back up to his office when it clicked and I asked, "Did we just agree to try this?"
So... I guess that's it then. Spring 2013, we're going to try. A single, at home insemination cycle with donor sperm.
And, surprisingly, we both hope it works.
Unexpected, to say the least. And quietly excited.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
The Word was with God,
and the Word was God. He existed in the beginning with God.
God created everything through him,
and nothing was created except through him.
The Word gave life to everything that was created,
and his life brought light to everyone.
The light shines in the darkness,
and the darkness can never extinguish it.
So the Word became human and made his home among us. He was full of unfailing love and faithfulness. And we have seen his glory, the glory of the Father’s one and only Son.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
brina: my eight-month pregnant little sister, due in January. She lives with her husband, J, and two little grumper pups. She is finishing up her English degree and is an accomplished voice talent. You have heard her voice here, here, and here! She and I have won our family Iron Chef Competition together two years in a row. Booyah! She has a heart for those that conservative religion has turned a collective back on. She is creative, loves God, and is excited to become a mother.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Thursday, December 20, 2012
My doctor was able to find the bump! This darn bump has been driving me crazy and my prayer today was that she could find it. Turns out that the bump has actually a tiny cluster of three (possible) cysts plus a fourth right next to them. She biopsied the area, which also removed all four. Nothing else looked abnormal during the colposcopy. We did a repeat Pap and a cervical biopsy, just to be safe.
The cervical biopsy hurt like CRAZY but everything else was fine. We should have the biopsy results by Wednesday/Thursday of next week.
Now, off to the airport!
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
I am starting to freak out. In doing the prep work for possibly cycling in March I realized that, not including my current cycle (I ovulated over the weekend), I will only have one full cycle between now and *trying*. WOW. I mean, just…. WOW.
Monday, December 17, 2012
Friday, December 14, 2012
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Friday, December 7, 2012
Tell me about your Christmas theme!
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Is there a cute wrap up for this story? Not really. Do I think I have "the sight?" Absolutely not. If anything, I think the Holy Spirit gives me a heads up when something is going to happen, allowing me to begin considering my response and planning for the outcome. I appreciate a little advance notice; I can't imagine having received the call about the dogs without warning... Talk about awkward!
I'm learning to take advantage of these moments. And, when I wake up in the middle of the night, whether from a dream or not, take the time to quiet my heart and ask the Lord who in my life needs prayer today. Sometimes it's me, most times it is not. Sometimes the person on my mind will reach out within a few hours of waking and tell me about a specific struggle. Sometimes I reach out, letting them know that they were on my mind.
And I never, EVER tell people when I have a dream that they died. Once was enough!
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
- If I could stay home, I would learn to play the three instruments that have been on my mind (guitar, ukulele, oboe) and get back up to snuff on piano and voice.
- If I could go back to school, I would study interior design.
- If I could have any job, I would go back to event coordination.
And then I start to think about how much time another child would need and take myself to task: Are you nuts? You're just barely starting to get time for yourself again! At least you get to mostly sleep through the night. Little K is doing homework and reading books! Why would you want to start again?
But it never lasts for long. I get one week out of every five when I don't want another child. Then we start closing in on ovulation again and start all over.
This has been your weekly ramble. You're welcome!