Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Long Time, No Blog

So, it's been a while. Just to get it out of the way: No, the diet didn't work out. I ate all of the carbs. They were delicious. Oh well.

Little Buddy turned One! The luau was amazing and a ton of fun. I meant to get all of the pictures and ended up with just a couple. But they are great :-) There was much reminiscing and balloons and food. Perfect!

Today, I turn 34. Ouch. It feels much older than 33. Too close to 35 which is too close to 40! With work, parenting, and leaving for vacation tomorrow, I haven't really had time to celebrate today. But there will be Mexican food and I've been promised Publix cupcakes when we get to Florida tomorrow.

And, yes, vacation tomorrow! Woo!!! Two weeks in Florida! I can't wait to spend time with my parents and my BFF. In addition to all the regular totally fun stuff we have planned, I also have one-on-one time planned with both of my parents. My mom and I will be doing a Bible study together while I'm in town and my dad will be teaching me to play guitar. I can't wait!! And my BFF and I are taking Little Buddy blueberry picking at his parents' farm. Yay!

We are still breastfeeding, although Little Buddy is slowly getting into solids. We are still cloth diapering full time. We are still baby wearing. We are still co-sleeping. I'm so proud of us for crossing the 1-year mark on all of these!

I'm struggling with my weight and body image issues right now but choosing to celebrate everything above. This first year with Little Buddy has been SO different from my first year with Little K. Our God is amazing! I never knew life could be this good, this blessed, this wonderful. Praise God!

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Day 3/33: Five Down and Day 4/33: Momentum

Day 3: My favorite thing about removing carbs from my diet (cause, let's be honest, carbs are delicious and it is a daily struggle to just say NO) is the instant results you see on the scale. After just two days, I'm already showing five pounds down! Woo!

The past few days have been okay. A little stressful at times (I am craving carbs like WHOA) but mostly delicious and encouraging. I managed to workout yesterday and I went to karate tonight. I have decided that 25-28 net carbs/day is actually a good number for a nursing mom, freeing me to eat enough to keep up a solid milk supply.

My water intake is going great and I'm making sure we get plenty of fiber each day with a minimum of artificial sweeteners. R is eating carb-free until dinner each night while I'm taking them in throughout the day. Last night we had lower-carb chicken fajitas from the slow cooker and tonight is beef stew with cauliflower instead of potatoes. I picked up some SF candies to satisfy those random sweet tooth moments. And I figured out that a tablespoon of heavy cream in my smoothie makes up for the lack of banana. Mmm - creamy!

Day 4: Today is a little off track. My carbs/water for the morning are in great shape but conference calls and early release at school has made fitting in a workout difficult. I'm going to try to workout this afternoon around 2:00 PM once Little K is home and Little Buddy has napped. We will see! I don't want to lose momentum.

I made these low-carb biscuits last night to go with out beef stew and they were great! A little bitter but it was SO nice to have a bready treat to dip in the bowl. 8/10 - Would recommend :-)

In other news, Little Buddy is turning 11 Months tomorrow! EEK! Where did my baby go???

Monday, February 2, 2015

Day 2/33: One Day and One Workout

Yesterday brought some cold, harsh reality. R and I weighed ourselves and took body measurements. The last time I stepped on the scale, I was 5-7 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight. yesterday showed 14 pounds over. EEK! I am so disappointed!! And when we took body measurements, several of my measurements were the same as R's. UGH! After that, I had to keep repeating to myself, "This is the starting point, this is the starting point."

Weigh-in and measurements will take place every Sunday morning. I'm hoping to see a difference in my weight after one week.

Day one of the diet went... okay. Here's my day:

Est. 75oz water
8:00 AM: Chai Tea Latte - 3 Net Carbs
11:00 AM: 2 egg omelet with 1/2C broccoli and 1/3C Cheese, 1.5 pieces organic bacon - 1 Net Carb
2:00 PM: Sugar Free PBJ Smoothie - 10 Net Carbs
3:00 PM: Organic Hot Dog (I was so hungry!!) - 0 Net Carbs
6:00 PM: Chicken Marsala with steamed Green Beans - 6 Net Carbs
8:00 PM: Low Carb Ice Cream - 6 Net Carbs

At 26 Net Carbs I'm obviously WAY over the 17 Net Carbs I was aiming for the day. Bleh. I am trying to figure out if that's okay since Little Buddy is still 95% breastfed. I do recognize that I need to keep my supply up and that requires fat, carbs, and calories. I dunno. I'm going to tweak my smoothie and see if I can at least get it down to 8 NC and look up homemade SF treats. I'm going to take 2 Glucocoman with my smoothie to make it to dinnertime without another snack and I need to get up to 100oz water with at least 25oz before my latte in the morning. So, there's improvement to be seen.

On the upside, I did manage to take my vitamins today. Woo!

As far as working out, today was day one. I worked with a personal trainer over the summer so I did one of the workouts he taught me. All told it was 40 minutes of work which I feel is a good start. Today is all rainy but, as long as the rain stops by noon, we are still going to try walking after lunch. I may try doing some jumping jacks and some weights this evening before dinner.

Speaking of dinner, low-carb chicken fajitas are already in the slow cooker. Awesome.

Only 32 days to go!

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Day 1/33: A Whole New Attitude (to food)

Of course, as soon as I decide I'm not going to blog anymore I end up with something to blog about.

Today is February 1st. We are exactly 33 days away from Little Buddy's first birthday. And I'm still not at or under my pre-pregnancy weight. Bleh. And I know exactly why. We have been eating takeout with embarrassing frequency through this first year of Little Buddy's life. So often that I'm going to just skip over the exact number of days per week to avoid the judgement that is sure to reign down on me.

So! It's time for a change. I've been feeling this way for a while lately but the final straw came from R. He went to his yearly physical last week and has gained more weight than he is comfortable with. So here we are. Doing the big D word - Diet.

But, really, it's a lifestyle change. We are removing the whites from our diet (white flour, white rice, white sugar...)  and adding 60-75 minutes of activity into our days. Call it Low Carb, Paleo, or THM, bad carbs are out and lots of movement is in!

R and I each have 20 pounds to lose. The general plan is to stick to a strict(ish) Low Carb diet with a few fruits thrown in until Little Buddy's first birthday. Then, after taking the day to splurge on cake and luau noms, step back and talk about how Low Carb felt for each of us and how we want to move forward.

For exercise, we are going to trade off 30 minute workouts in the morning while the other watches the baby and take a 2 mile family walk at Noon. Plus I have karate 2 nights/week.

To take care of our food, I have prepared 13 low(er) carb freezer meals for the slow cooker. During the day, we have: coffee, eggs, Applegate bacon, cottage cheese, salads, no-sugar smoothies, raw almond butter with celery, and the occasional apple. I'm also picking up frozen burgers for when we are craving fast food (I'm not above making oven baked sweet potato fries to go with 'em on occasion). I have almond flour for breading chicken and tons of veggies to be steamed, roasted, and stir-fried.

We are taking bits from each of the "diet plans" above. Low Carb, of course, reducing the amount of carbohydrates in our diet over all. Paleo by eating whole foods rather than processed. And THM by eating on 3-hour cycles, eating until we are satisfied, and not excluding fruits.

The hope, of course, is that the next 33 days will help us re-learn how to eat and take care of our bodies, as well as turn our family into a healthier and more budget-contentious one.

Sit down, hold on, and here we go!

Monday, January 26, 2015


Sorry for disappearing for the better part of two months. I didn't even manage to put up Little Buddy's 10 month update! For the first time in four years, I didn't submit anything for Creme de la Creme. I am feeling further and further removed from this space. What do you say about infertility when your child is home with you, learning to walk and sprouting new teeth practically daily?

Things are going well here. Very well. Little Buddy is thriving, Little K is doing well. R and I resumed date night last week and it was great (amazing! wonderful! I remember why I married this guy - we actually have a great time hanging out together!). I joined Jamberry as an Independent Nail Consultant. Work is rocking. I went back to karate after the holidays. Cloth diapering is still going strong, as is breastfeeding. I've started getting dressed and putting on makeup again. I've finally come into my own as a vocalist at the Saturday Night Service. My parents are looking at buying some land just up the road and retiring to NC to be nearer to us. I bought new coffee pods for my coffee maker...

Life is happening. It's not new or remarkable but it is ours and we love it. I feel like I don't have the time or drive to update in this space as often, simply because, if I do, I feel like I will miss experiencing some part of what God has given us. (In the ten minutes it took me to write this post, Little Buddy has discovered that he can reach the cats on the chair and learned how to unplug my laptop.)

I'm not sure of the future of this space. Sometimes I think about having another child (please, sir, I want some more...) but it isn't the overwhelming, all consuming ache that was there before Little Buddy was a part of our lives. R and I even looked up baby names only to realize we don't like anything we found for a boy. R insists that he is done, that nothing could ever convince him to have another child so please just let this idea go. I may be back here to talk about those thoughts and feelings. Until then, please know that I love each one of you and am praying for you.

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Thursday, December 11, 2014

Nine Months or 40 weeks

Little Buddy turned nine months old on December 5th and 40 weeks old yesterday. I can't believe our little man has been out longer than he was in! Life with him is such a joy that it's hard to find the words so, for now, I'll just stick to facts:
  • Length: 29.5", 81%
  • Weight: 18.5lbs, 19%
 Our long and lean boy! He was 36% for weight at his last check up but started crawling a little over two weeks ago, causing him to slim down even further. When we had our last check, we were given instructions to start him on solids with a lot of fat along with continuing to breastfeed. The plan was to do baby led weaning, giving him "real" table food rather than purees. Little Buddy wasn't very interested in that and would gag a lot when trying to eat. We switched to purees last week and it's been going much better! I'm melting down coconut oil into some of his purees to try to beef him up a bit. My mom was able to reassure me, though, that I was long and lean, too, so no reason to be overly concerned.

He did start crawling about 2.5 weeks ago and immediately went into standing/couch walking the next day. Eek! We now have a SUPER mobile baby and a great many baby gates around our house. Most of our pictures are blurry these days as we attempt to capture a smile before he crawls away!

We tried sleep training and, after three+ weeks, only got him to sleep 1 hour in the pack n play before needing to come back into our bed (and even that was with anywhere from 30 to 60 minutes of crying). I looked up how to sidecar his crib and we did that this week. So far it's going better with me nursing him to sleep in bed and then just shifting him over to the crib tethered to my side of the bed. It's still just an hour or so of sleep but there's no crying and we have a lot more space for the grownups to sleep.

Little Buddy has learned to crawl over to us and demand attention by pulling pants legs or lifting his arms to be picked up. We are trying to ask him if he wants "up" before picking him up to teach him an action word. He has been babbling "da-da-da-da-da" and "ba-ba-ba-ba-ba" for a couple months already, adding "muh-muh-muh" and "nuh-nuh-nuh" recently.

He still hates the bottle, ugh. We tried introducing a sippy cup which he likes to chew but not suck on. He does like drinking water from a cup while in the bath, though, so we'll see how that goes.

Little Buddy still cries when he's without mom or dad. I had to drop out of BSF since he wasn't tolerating the nursery and something similar happened with my small group, too. Little K has started spending time in the church nursery with her brother while I'm on stage singing, which has helped a bit but is still a delicate balance of will he/won't he cry. *sigh*

He loves the Christmas tree and Christmas lights outside. He cried when he met Santa. He dances when he hears music, especially in rehearsal with me. He naps best in the Ergo. He has four teeth with 4 more coming in. He whines when he's tired but talks and laughs a ton. He's completely perfect.

I am so thankful for this boy every single day.

Friday, December 5, 2014

Yesterday and Today

R and I celebrated six years of marriage yesterday and Little Buddy turned nine months old today. I feel completely covered in blessings. God is good!