(Shout out to Alexis for the title. Love it!!)
This morning's scan was beautiful, showing two follicles squished up next to each other and measuring 25.5 and 26.9, respectively. My lining looked awesome at 11.9. We did a progesterone blood draw and planned on scheduling the IUI based on the results - either tomorrow morning without a trigger or Sunday morning with a trigger. My coordinator told me to keep the phone close and she would call me personally with a plan.
We had three hours of beautiful, fantastic hope. Those two follicles made their way into my heart during those hours... I remembered my friend's prophecy and felt like I had gotten the first look at our children. I laid on the couch and dozed until 1:00 PM, thinking about our children and how amazed I was that we would be making them a reality this weekend.
My coordinator called at 1:00 PM and said that my progesterone came back at 5.1 - high enough that to assume that I ovulated several days ago. She conferred with one of the doctors who made the final call of cancelling this cycle and trying again next time.
I'm just so disappointed... I wish I had the faith that the Lord could do something amazing and I could still be pregnant at the end of the month. But we know that R is at zero. So, we're just waiting. Again.
*sigh* We have a prescription for Femara and will start that on CD3, two per day through CD7 and back in for a follicle scan on CD12.
Really, it will all be okay. Clearly the Lord's timing is different than mine. If I'm being honest, I would much rather do things His way. I just wish His way was now.
I'm signing off for today but here's a sneak peak at tomorrow's Etsy Day post. Enjoy!