I know summer is hard on the blogs. Many slow or stop posting/commenting in the summer months as schedules become more relaxed and vacations pick up. We spend more time outside and less in front of our computers.
One of the reasons I’ve been so quiet is fear. Not of this pregnancy or anything going wrong but of the ways this baby will change our family.
Moments this past week with Little K home, enjoying her so much and the amazing ways she has grown make me question our decision to change our family dynamic by adding another child.
Time alone with R the two weeks between children and realizing that we won’t have that again for years.
Balancing interaction with Little K and keeping her away from TV/computer this week with work and the realization of how difficult it will be to balance work with a newborn.
Worrying about our finances, crappy insurance, lack of savings, and how we’re going to pay taxes in the Spring.
It all gets so overwhelming!
I’m trying so hard to focus on the Lord and His plan. Even though we pursued treatment, we went very low tech on a one-time shot so that we could trust Him with the outcome. And He gave us a child.
We trusted Him with creating this new life; I have to trust Him with our family and finances.