Monday, January 26, 2015


Sorry for disappearing for the better part of two months. I didn't even manage to put up Little Buddy's 10 month update! For the first time in four years, I didn't submit anything for Creme de la Creme. I am feeling further and further removed from this space. What do you say about infertility when your child is home with you, learning to walk and sprouting new teeth practically daily?

Things are going well here. Very well. Little Buddy is thriving, Little K is doing well. R and I resumed date night last week and it was great (amazing! wonderful! I remember why I married this guy - we actually have a great time hanging out together!). I joined Jamberry as an Independent Nail Consultant. Work is rocking. I went back to karate after the holidays. Cloth diapering is still going strong, as is breastfeeding. I've started getting dressed and putting on makeup again. I've finally come into my own as a vocalist at the Saturday Night Service. My parents are looking at buying some land just up the road and retiring to NC to be nearer to us. I bought new coffee pods for my coffee maker...

Life is happening. It's not new or remarkable but it is ours and we love it. I feel like I don't have the time or drive to update in this space as often, simply because, if I do, I feel like I will miss experiencing some part of what God has given us. (In the ten minutes it took me to write this post, Little Buddy has discovered that he can reach the cats on the chair and learned how to unplug my laptop.)

I'm not sure of the future of this space. Sometimes I think about having another child (please, sir, I want some more...) but it isn't the overwhelming, all consuming ache that was there before Little Buddy was a part of our lives. R and I even looked up baby names only to realize we don't like anything we found for a boy. R insists that he is done, that nothing could ever convince him to have another child so please just let this idea go. I may be back here to talk about those thoughts and feelings. Until then, please know that I love each one of you and am praying for you.

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  1. We completely understand! Blessings to you!

  2. I get you completely. I guess for me it was God's plan to just have one and be done.

  3. I've been thinking about you!! So glad to hear that you're busy enjoying life and all the good stuff that's going on. And if it's all the same to you, please don't let Little Buddy teach Millie how to unplug things, thanks!! ;)

  4. I understand somewhat. I started my blog to deal with my loss and while that still hurts, my life revolves around a living child now.

    I'm glad your life is going so well. :)